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Cheena New Year

Haha I guess I have one of the most carefree Cheena new years living in a Christian family. I can enjoy all the benefits of Chinese new year without adhereing to all the inane regulations like

avoiding books, avoiding medicine, avoiding brooms, avoiding blacks(that didn't come out right).

Yays! I had quite alot of fun with the PM gang on our celebration, here are some pics,(photo courstesy of our dear ducky) the Yu Sheng that we had preparing,still preparing.....brown gold!simply having funShao Long, I can see into your nostrils.....going after the "ah beng" lookhaha, finally a serious fun picture, wait did that make sense?Lao Hei!! usually people would be shouting crap about good fortune, but we sounded like a crappy church choir shouting HALELUYA!HALELUYA!! haha good fun STEAMBOAT!!!!! believe it or not, all the ingredients we bought amounted only to around $29 which is around the price of Pizza hut delivery. who says you can't have cheap and good steamboat?I have NO IDEA why ben took this photo and of course, with new year comes, WINE WINE WINE!!!!!! haha dun worry I didnt get drunk and am not intending to get drunk. but I like wine, it runs in my family, although I'm only 16 haha, a toast to the new year!!!well that's all the pics of the PM Cheena new year celebration.

after that I had another Cheena New Year Celebration dinner, this time with my family. photo courtesy of my bro all the dishes you see are made by my mom

This Yu Sheng was purchased from Sushi Tei and it was goooooooooooood

Fish maw & Abalone soup!!! yum! This is not steamboat but a dish call bhen chai. also by my mom, it was AWESOME!
The Yusheng ready to be mixed why do I look so weird? just add gold! Lastly, we had Baked Alaska for dessert, It tasted like a piece of sweet cloud, drooool... we ended with some healthy fruits after that oh-so-sinful dinner.

haha that was more or less my new year celebration besides the ang pao and visitation. Me and my big mouth promised Joseph that I'd be treating him plus the PM gang to dinner if I collected more than $1000 worth of ang pao, and then it came true, oh well. treating them this friday, so annoying. haha HAPPY CHEENA NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!

Names

Hey guys, I seem to notice a growing trend in people giving me nicknames. So I'd like to list out the names I dun mind being called and names that simply will make me pull out your tongue.

Okay Nicknames: Laiman, Turtle, Turtle King, Panda, Holy Panda, Turtle Panda
Irritating Nicknames: Lemon, La Mian, Lehman=_____="

while I'm at it, I'll list down the names I call other people

Benjamin: Ben, Duck, Bendustbin broom, Benducky
Solomon: King Solomon, Salmon, Solo
Christopher Sern: Sern, Chris, Bubble

haha that's all for now

The conclusion of the matter

Hey guys, sorry for scaring some of you with my emo posts, I already received an answer from God regarding which church I should go to. It seems that it is not yet time for me to leave the Presbytary. God gave me a verse, 1Kings2:26, telling me to return. sigh, how long must I contend with this? God please start a revival soon in AMKPC.

Sweet Presbitry

Today, I went to AMKPC. I talked to my leaders about what I felt. They advised me that if I wasn't growing, in this church, they recommended me to go to the church I could grow better in. I know you may think it sounds harsh but actually they said it very nicely to me. So, I guess this is it huh? God is calling me to another church? Shall I transfer to Trinity now? I don't know I'm just so confused and heartbroken. Heartbroken not because my church has abandoned me but I am abandoning my church. I guess I foresaw this, I just never expected it to happen.
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My heart was breaking within me as I made this poem, to the tune of "Sweet Hour of Prayer"
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SWEET PRESBITRY
Sweet Presbitry, Sweet Presbitry

My roots have grown so deep in thee

You were a guide a home to me

I always found my God in thee

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Yet in the years I hoped to grow,

I nary found a single soul

To laugh with me and cry with me

My deepest secret to bear with me

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Sweet Presbitry, Sweet Presbitry

I could not find one with the same zeal as me

And now I long for another Tree

I beg thee do not cry 'Adultery!'

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Yet I cannot bear, for me to tear

myself from you my tribal share

Yet I found God in yonder elsewhere

So cry me not, my dear, my care

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Sweet Presbitry, Sweet Presbitry

I pray you'll grow well without me

You may forget me but I will never thee

Farewell, Farewell Sweet Presbitry

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Farewell,

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Farewell,

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Sweet Presbitry.

Visit to Trinity

Once again, God has provided me with an excellent day. Thank you Jesus! I visited Trinity today and had tons of fun with my pals there. However, the meaningful part only came much later. After the visit, we went for dinner and I went home along with a good friend. I will call my friend 'J' to protect J's identity. J, you know who you are.

So anyways on the bus we began chatting, then the subject turned to how we came to know Christ and our personal testimonies. Even when I reached my stop, we decided to walk around Kovan so we could share for abit more. I must say, the time of sharing was very meaningful for me and I'm sure it was also to J.

As I told J how I came to be in AMKPC, it was a reminder to me that God placed me in my church for a reason. I have to admit, my loyalty to my church has been quite shaky lately and I have been tempted to join other churches, like Trinity... but today, I renew my commitment again to AMKPC. But it's ironic isn't it? I have more close friends in Trinity than I have in my own church. Sometimes, I just dun feel that I'm growing very much in AMKPC. I just pray that a revival would start soon in AMKPC and I will strive my best to be part of it's initiation. but to all the AMKPC-ians that are reading my blog, I'd like to say that I am human and my patience has its limits.

Anyways I have a message to J:
I know that we haven't known each other for that long a time, so thx much for entrusting me with your testimony, I know that it isn't easy to tell. I promise that I will keep it confidential and pray for you as I know you'd do the same for me. I want you to know that I believe that whenever God gives us a bad situation, it is for two reasons. To strengthen us, and also so that we can help others who are in the same situation in the future. So keep on persevering for the sake of the Gospel. God bless!

Well I've blogged enough for now, signing out

Failed........

It's official... I failed my Amaths qualifying test - HORRIBLY- 15 out of 100. I've entered my emo mood again, tho I'll probably be back to normal after some sleep. sigh, I'm just not a maths person I guess. The LLT still has a hold on me.

God help me, I'm so lost right now. If I don't take Amaths I doubt I'll be able to get into a JC. I pray that they will allow me to continue to take Amaths but what are the chances of that happening? I have to admit that I have not been doing my best to study maths. If they do allow me to continue, I will work hard. I dun guarantee a distinction, but my hardwok is what I'll promise. sigh....

God gave me this familiar verse today:

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "

plans to prosper you and not to harm you,

plans to give you hope and a FUTURE.

Quite ironic huh? since I just posted about my future dreams. Perhaps God has different plans for me? God, I may not know your plans, but I will trust you. I know you will give me the best future for me. I'll work hard!

My plans for the future

I know that the future is unknown to me and that God's will will ultimately be done, but a guy is still allowed to have dreams right? I have a rather unusual dream but you'd understand why if you know me well enough.

First of all, after secondary school, I hope to go to a good JC or Poly. My targets are, in descending order: ACJC, AJC, YJC, Ngee An Poly. But judging from my maths mark now, It'd only be by God's grace if I were to get into any JC. God help me. If I were to go to Poly, I would take up psychology.

Afterwards I plan to go to University and study Child Psychiatry and hopefully get a degree in it. I aim to be an excellent child psychiatrist and help many children grow up normally and happilly. After I'm more or less stable, I plan to also enter bible college and be a good pastor to my church. Then once I have enough money I'd like to set up an orphanage foundation, yes an orphanage, and hopefully God would allow it to grow all over the world. Availing good home and shelter to many abandonned children all around the world. Then I can live out the rest of my life doing the Lord's will and helping others until He should call me back home.

My biggest dream is to set up an internationally known orphanage to protect and provide a loving childhood for many children and forming them into men and women after God's heart.
Of course all these are not set in stone and I haven't included unpredictable details like when I'm gonna get married and bla. And I know it is only by God's grace if I were to achieve my dream. Although being a pastor for a neighbourhood church and a chairman of several international orphanages would be a big juggle, I am ready to give my life to God and do whatever he wishes for me to do. God's will be done!

School song?!?!

Breaking news! I have been chosen along with some other choir members to sing my school song for recording! I can't believe it! The ENTIRE school will be listening to my voice EVERY tuesday after assembly!

Pardon my rudeness, but did I mention that my school song sounds like it was composed by a deaf-mute person with a cat stuck in his throat? And that the original recording sounds like it was sung by a drug-high eunuch? I can't compare with a eunuch on drugs! I am NOT exagerrating, okay maybe just a little but you get my point. AARRGH!!!!!! God bless my soul

He went away

okay, this poem/song is dedicated to a certain someone:

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I heard the news,

he will go away.

far away, a place to shake his past loose.

To go to a paradise he could choose.

what can I do? but watch him go

and keep my tears from flowing, so slow.

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Just keep running, keep on running,

when will you stop and look,

you've already found your heart's desire.

Keep on searching, you'll start hurting

if you just stop and look.

Don't be afraid, through hurt you'll grow stronger

but you just will not stop and look

I pray to God you'll not loose your way

when you went away

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Zero hour came

he's going away

fading from hour hearts, fading from our minds

he wish we'd forget, but we never could

they gave him gifts of gold, frankincense and myrrh

but I could only offer him this prayer

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Just keep running, keep on running

but do you know what you

are running from? when you've passed your heart's one desire

You kept searching, never finding

you will not just fade away

when you went away

And I pray to God you'll find your way

not to leave the path but each day to pray

for strength to face the day

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Just keep running, keep on running

do you still know what you are running for?

Just stop searching, and start finding

just remember what you're searching for

You're no longer here but you can still go there.

And I pray to God you'll find your way

when you went away

when you went away

don't fade away

Stressed.....

Aaaargh!!!!! A-maths QT test coming up!!! guys, I know that I always seem like I'm relaxed but I REALLY am worried right now. If I flunk this test I can forget about taking A-maths T-T. God help me, I know your plans for me are good. I'm studying hard! Sern, Ben, you guys help me erh!

More reflections

I can't believe it, I'm gonna have to sing "Apologize" for sec1 orientation for the choir accapella! The HORROR. Can anyone imagine me pulling that note? Even I know that the moment I sing it the glass is going to shatter and everyone's gonna wanna rip their ears out and drown themselves in the ocean just to escape my voice!

okay that is exagerating but you get my point.

These are some friends in my life that I'd like to thank and encourage but never really got the chance to( in no specific order):

Benjamin Voon: why I'm starting with you? Well, I guess you're my first genuine friend. Thx for always supporting me all these years! Keep persevering and remember you're never alone.

Christopher Sern: Hey Bro, I'm really glad to have a brother like you. Keep on drawing people to Christ, you're doing an awesome job!

Christopher Chen: Chris I keep praying that you do not let people look down on you because you are young but set an example for all in SPEECH, LOVE, and LIFE. keep maturing in Christ kay?

Dennis Yu: hey bro, I'm glad I met you in 108. you've been a great friend ever since. You may be young in Christ now but I know you will rise up as a great leader for Him to be a "kor" to many.

Solomon Soh: Solo! You've always been a good cheer to all of us and have been a great help. Thx much! Bring Christ's joy and music to this lifeless world

Micah: haha I guess you're kinda like my best friend in church. You have much brain knowledge of the bible, let it turn more into heart knowledge kay? Let God's word always be your guide.

Bryan: I am very encouraged by your courage to leave your gang and follow Christ. I know you may never read my blog, but I just want to say I'm glad I know you and I pray you will keep growing in Christ

Hui Xian: Yo sis! you are also young in Christ but I know that your zeal and thirst for Him is your great strength. Keep thirsting for Christ and his church.

Pan Yong Zhi: hey bro! it's great that you can finaly attend church! I know that the Lord will use you for great things. Continue to trust in His Word.

Loong Guat: LG! I haven't forgotten you! haha. always remember that you are made in the image of God. He loves you and wil bring you to great things!

LeeWei Jun: haha we're kinda stuck together for another year. Thx for being such a good sport all these years I appreciate it. Dun worry! You'll grow taller!

Well that is everyone for now. I really thank God that you guys are in my life. I pray that we will remain

The year so far

Well, it's been a great year so far. Finally got a maths teacher I can understand, a renewed zeal to study, great friends around me and most of all, a God that loves me:D God has been answering my prayers!
Yong Zhi was finally able to go to church for the first time!! Haleluyah!
Today I went to Tammy's birthday lunch at PizzaHut and we had a smashing time. Christopherx2, Dennis, Jordon, Alvin Phua and Jethro was also there. It was all laughs when we saw Tammy's birthday cake and ice cream that was a little profane if you think dirty when the waitress stuck a candle between the two. We were all making lewd jokes about the cake/icecream that I have come to feel abit guilty over. I wonder if God minded? Oh wells. in anycase, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAMMY!!